Lagging
I was free earlier than expected last night, so I went over to Sun Yat-sen Memorial to practice. The veranda was packed with dancing teens. I swear, with the amount of practice all of these kids do, why isn’t Taiwan the Teen Dance Capital of the World? Oh, I know, it’s because they’re just annoying copycats who can’t be bothered to turn their music down to tolerable levels.
I was really out of it, though. I haven’t managed to get back into things since Chinese New Year. I feel like all the other students are advancing while I just tread water. I practiced with Mr. Hu and performed miserably. The new girl has already finished studying the empty-handed form; I think she learned it in about half an hour. I realize that I am probably the worst student there, but sometimes it depresses me more than others.
I know the feeling, but we have to keep in mind that Taiji is not a competition against others.
We go at our own speed because we are competing only against ourselves.
And what is important if not the fact that we play Taiji for our own pleasure ?
Comment by Cyril — March 2, 2009 @ 12:51 pm
Actually, that’s what bothers me the most is that even when competing with myself, I’m falling behind. But it’s ok, there are always ups and downs, and neither lasts that long.
Comment by Poagao — March 2, 2009 @ 8:29 pm